I can't sleep

i am finding it increasingly more difficult to sleep at night. I am not alleging some vast government conspiracy but each night it gets more weird. i lay down around 2 or 3 am and close my eyes( like a normal person). i am subjected to a round of visual imagery that is borderline "a clockwork orange". i see all these flashes of moving pictures of things that i can't place. it usually lasts about 10 minutes and i can never place any of it. most of it appears to have been around the early 19th century based on the clothes. i am getting totally weirded out by it. i am not one to put any stock in that past life non-sense but it is disturbing. i see things that i shouldn't and they are not from some movie. so in response i have decided to begin drinking heavily again. (i admit that i had slowed down b/c last time i got an apparent migraine while at work. it consisted of my vision blurring until i couldn't see anything but white light and thus became convinced i would be the new ray charles and since i play no instruments and my wife says that voice isn't good enough to make me the first "blind boy of tennessee", i cut back). whenever i pass out i don't have to deal with this bs so i yet again i fix myself. i say screw you to Kerry for trying to give health coverage to all americans. the alcohol industry has worked hard over the years to provide all americans with the opportunity to self medicate and now the good people in canada and mexico are doing their part. you can easily cross the border to get whatever you need and big ups to the drug industry for having commercials so that we all know what to ask for.
also, i heard to great quotes on npr today. i am prefacing this by saying that i am jumping off the blah blah blah election bandwagon so i am just sharing.
apparently a group of decided and undecided voters in an affluent suburd of Minneapolis had a debate "get-together".
--side note-- that is fucking weird to me that the upper middle class is so bored that they are having debate parties. it is not like it is the super bowl. although i think office pools would make it all more fun and get more people involved. i am not saying limit it to " i'll take bush and the points" but fuck let's include all the issues and get congress involved. "hey billy do think that the assault weapon ban will be re-introduced after the election. well joe i had hoped to ride the gay marriage deal to the top of the standing but cheney's lesbo daughter really fucked me so i am hoping that the ten commandments getting banned puts me back in this thing. i had the dems and 5 votes but vegas just pushed the line to even so i am feeling to good". i attribute my deep affection for the nfl and college basketball to the good people at vegas and the chance to pocket and extra $50 bones at the job. --
so the folks get together and the one lady tells npr "I have a good many friends who have said that if they had a draft age child, they would rethink their vote." and the next lady says " I have type 1 diabetes, and i am voting bush. i really feel that kerry's efforts for a national health care program is bad. i really feel that he should do more research." in the spirit of my refusal to lean one way or the other online i am refraining from commentary. i will say that sean penn may be pissed at matt and trey for saying that uninformed voters should not vote but as always comedy central makes a good point. and that chapelle is funny.